This is a heart-pouring post.
I'm on the brink of failure. It's frustrating, heart-wrenching, and utterly devastating.
I had hoped to work on the topic that I'm passionate about. Combining two of the things that I love - motherhood and the environment. I thought (in all my naiveness) that this topic would be interesting, and since nobody ever did this before I would surely contribute to the knowledge building.
That's me. 80% idealist, only 20% realist. Between me & my sister, she's the practical and sensible one while I mostly tread in the shadow of fantasy and only crash hard to reality when things didn't go as hoped.
It's been more than 8 weeks since I started data collection but the response has been lukewarm (closer to icy cold). Friends shared that on average they only spent 3-4 weeks to collect their data from more than 300 respondents but in 8 weeks, I only managed to collect 121 feedback, and probably even less once I've eliminated the outliers.
Either CD-using moms are too busy to go online (because those CDs don't clean themselves!) or most of them are occasional users, not devoted users. So they are not compelled to participate.
Whatever is the reason, the reality is I can't afford to wait for the 100 more people to participate. I'll be back to work by next month, and I have only 6 weeks+ to complete my thesis. I'm passionate, but time is not on my side. I am probably required to abandon this project for my MBA.
That is why I'm broken-hearted.
I will survive this. A successful person don't succumb to dead-ends, rather they find ways to make it to success.
And my best friend Kak Za once gave me a damn good advice.
Agak-agak menyusahkan, tinggalkan je la...
I think it's time to heed that advice.
Wipe my tears and move on.